Being Chosen

So this has been an emotional week and it's really good! Last week was really dull and I found it really hard to want to do anything. On Saturday I asked God to refresh me and just give me a week where I am in His presence. When you seek you will find! If you have been around me long enough something you'll pick up really quickly on is that I'm a doer. I'm constantly moving and jumping to the next thing. That was not me last week. I cried after folding a load of laundry. I told my hubby that I was afraid of my own shadow. Pathetic yes but true last week. Needless to say this week is 100% better!

 I had a session with my individual therapist at Chrysalis and Tubman on Mondays. I participated in a 12 month program called DBT - Dialectical Behavior Therapy. I learned how to address my emotions and learned different skills to use as I processed them. They gave me a roadmap to what I could do to help get back into my window of tolerance. It's therapy where I learned mindfulness, emotion regulation, self soothing skills. For the first time in my life I was able feel all my emotions freely. For a long time I thought anger was a sin. What I didn't understand was that it's just an emotion, it's the aggression that can become the sin, or in my case reaction. So I always felt really guilty for feeling angry and at the same time. I knew it's just what I was feeling at the time and that is O.K. 

Tuesday I had a moment where I could have been stuck in that rut of not wanting to do anything again but I threw worship music on and it was quickly gone. Soon I was worshiping and loving again. So today I learned that I am chosen. This isn't a pride thing you are too! In my life 3 pursuits have taken place. The most important is God, second my mama and lastly straight from a promise from God was my third pursuit Zechariah! Over the course of my life God continues to remind me of these pursuits because I often times feel alone especially as a stay-at-home-mom. He did something even greater last night.

Nathan was with our neighbors for the day yesterday I saw him and immediately got excited. I asked our neighbor to see him and he looked at me smiled immediately and stretched his little arms out for me! These past few days have been so wonderful but that one has to be my favorite! There's no greater smile that I know then Nathan's. It's so joyful so full of life and I'm so blessed and honored to see it! My son chose me! He chose to come and get cuddles! My heart was overflowing from that precious exchange. Being a mother is seriously the greatest blessing and challenge! It brings me so much peace seeing him happy safe and healthy, my three prayer requests since I was pregnant! God wasn't done yet. He had more blessings in store!

Our family is going to blessed abundantly this Christmas season through unexpected ways. Seeing God's provision in our lives is so amazing! Ending out the night at a house church Zechariah and I attended during our engagement and onward. We have such amazing people in our lives! Last night was about revival. It starts with us, it starts with a few and spreads because where the Spirit of the Lord is how can it be contained!! So I got prayed over and received the spirit of prayer and I even was able to be an encouragement! Once again God showed me I was chosen to receive those gifts!

In my rough days and weeks I need to cling to the truth. It is that I have been bought with a precious price. We all have been. The enemy loves to play with our minds and when his arrows attack we have to go to God. I'm not saying this only because I'm Christian. I'm saying this because in my experience there is no other way! Healing is found in Christ alone.

Let go of any hurt that hinders your relationship with God, I have. Instead of emptiness he met me with fullness. He can do that for you also! Being chosen is a done deal all you have to do is lift your hands confess you need him and your HIS FOREVER! No matter what, no matter where you go He'll always be there. I want this so much for you also!

A prayer for you: 

Father, I bring before you any hurting soul that needs your refreshing power to sweep away anything that doesn't belong, that gets in the way of their relationship with you, may you be the center of their lives as you have become in mine! May your Grace and Mercy wash away every hint of sin and blot out iniquity. Cleanse this soul from within. May the cross become more then a symbol let it become freedom to be who we are called to be. Let us all with confidence approach the throne of Grace. Let your light penetrate any darkness or crack in a person's heart. Bring reconciliation where there needs to be, forgiveness, action, prayer, and above all may we bring you praise!



Love you with all my heart
Tina Martina Putney

In case you would like to begin with worship I suggest Kari Jobe She's Amazing!!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=huFra1mnIVE