Have you seen the War room? If not I would highly encourage you to! It's an amazing teaching movie about how to be a prayer warrior! I want to be 80 and still praying with fervent prayers like I am now at 31! I watched that movie the other night and God told me He was teaching me to be a warrior. The lady says " I do my fighting in prayer." This is what I now am doing!
I set up a War room in our livingroom! I have notecards of prayers and answered prayers! I intend to keep this so the boys can see how faithful God is! I want them to experience true authentic relationship wth Jesus! Tonight my son Nathan prayed his first prayer to God!! We must be doing something right! Later in the evening he woke up and threw up all over himself. Is that a coincidence that in the same night he prays and gets sick? Doesn't feel like it to this mama! You bet I prayed over our boy tonight! I'm not letting Satan take my son's health or anything else!
The song Warrior has become my battle cry! I heard it once before on KTIS and God told me specifically to put it on my playlist. I have and I love this song so much! It's such a powerful decleration! It's also the way God wants to break me out of collapse week. He told me to listen to it over again as many times as I need and that will help me bounce back much quickly! There will be days sometimes even weeks where I won't really want to do much but vegetate on the couch. It's not the ideal and it is our "new normal." Not the normal I want or chose but nonetheless it's where we are.
I was telling a friend of mine recently that I physically cannot choose to not collapse my body does it for me. I physically cannot choose to no react to painful anniversaries again my body does it for me. The body is truly a fasinating organism! It stores information, memories, anniversaries, trauma, hopes ans dreams! When I go through the painful anniversaries I am pretty wiped out for a week before and after sometimes the whole month! It's that debilitating! Another debilitating symptom I suffer with are migraines.
They really are the death of me as I often times say. Tomorrow I have an appointment to talk about preventing these awful and much unwanted intrusive headaches! I want to be done with them! I have no time to waste on migraines and rob my kiddos of the mama they need! I do never back down and I do get back up so much stronger! When I see something a muck I attack it until it gets resolved! That's just me I'm a warrior! I have a battle that is to important not to fight!
I want you to listen to the song linked! Take a few moments and just let these words leap into your heart settle into your bones! No matter what or where you've been YOU are a WARRIOR!!!!
Love you with all my heart
Tina Martina Putney
https://youtu.be/T2LmSDVZdNg