This month has been crazy! From peace to chaos it seems to have turned overnight. Both Zechariah and I have gotten little sleep in these past four weeks. The thing I love about us is that we are determined to focus on each other no matter what new season we're in. Zechariah is always doing his best to search out my heart and what I'm feeling. There are days that will feel like you can't do anything right. Yesturday was one of those days for me.
After a stressful 3 weeks I finally opened up and what happened afterwards was beautiful! We have a wall decoration on our bookcase that says family holds the key to your heart. Zechariah is usually always able to tell how I'm doing and know when I need to talk, take a walk, be with a friend, take care of my sons needs. The stress of this past month is trying to find our "new normal." We know having a baby changes everything.
At a church house Zechariah and I go to on Tuesday nights we were prophesied over and Nathan too! He was supposed to bring us together not drive us apart. It's felt like what Gods wanted for us was being attacked by the enemy and not until yesturday did we actually see that prophecy fulfilled. We're back to the marriage God established! We're working as a team again! It's beautiful and I love my husband more dearly now! Yesturday a friend of ours was over and Zechariah had Nathan in his arms and was just walking him around our kitchen telling him what everything was. It was the cutest thing!
Watching my husband be a father is a beautiful thing! He says the same for me! We love each other and our son! We're a family and we cherish that! Our newborn pictures I think do a great job of showing this! Well with a week old baby we went to a camp in Wisconsin (yup the three of us).
You're probably going "are you nuts" at this point! We love to travel and want to get Nathan accustomed to it also. During the earlier part of this summer God put going back to camp on my heart. I knew I was going to be having a newborn soon so I didn't know how that would be possible but God kept bringing camp back to me. So August 10-15 we were in Wisconsin. Zechariah and I weren't staying together over night. He stayed at a house with guys and I stayed with missionaries and Nathan. Some nights I was crying because of a very unhappy baby boy but I also learned the most important lesson that week which I'd like to share with you. No matter what never give up.
Breastfeeding is hard and I was just about to give up but my breastfeeding mentor encouraged me. I kept at it and found that towards the end of the week it got easier. I also recognized that I got a lot more calm and so did Nathan! There were nights I didn't know how I was going to make it through but we made it. Once I understood that I was never going to give up it became easier to keep going. Just like in the delivery room I had a job to do and I was going to finish it! My son needed me to not give up for many reasons but mainly to show him that we never give up!
Another lesson I learned is community is vital to a fulfilled life! Camp was amazing and it's filled with great people it was a joy to come back a second year! I already asked Zechariah if we could consider coming back another year as a family! Taking a week old baby to Wisconsin is crazy but God was showing me the importance of community! Life is never supposed to be done alone. I was expecting to be taking care of Nathan myself as Zechariah goes to work. What actually happened was that God was showing us the need to be together and be around community now. Not one part of this have I done alone. The beautiful thing is now I don't want to!
Zechariah will be going to work soon but we'll still be focusing on our teamwork. When God brings you a partner you don't get to be alone! Even if he's not going to be home all the time he'll still be helping with taking care of our boy! I couldn't imagine doing this any other way! I love working as a team with my husband it helps life to feel balanced when everything else around us may not be!
As we continue this journey of parenthood please keep praying for our teamwork and communication. We don't want 3 voices in our conversations when it's just us two talking. Community is vital to your life it has become essential in ours!! Our church family has blessed us like crazy during this season and we are so grateful for all their help! I'm praying you can find yourselves in beautiful community as well!!
Thank you to all who've helped,supported and loved on our family during this time! We love you and are praying for you!
Tina Martina Putney
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