After this morning I think my post is taking a different direction! Well I'm really excited to share blessings upon the Putneys we've experienced over the last few days!! As I went outside this moring to do my bible study a bag was on my steps. It was a bag of groceries from Aldi. There was no note and just happened to be what we needed. So whoever was lead to bless our family this morning thank you!!!!
Week one has been pretty emotional not necessarily because of the material but because of a lot of outside events! It was our sweetie birthday week!!! I have been looking forward to his birthday for quite some time and his parties!!! I was really excited to celebrate our boy! I feel pretty sure he felt loved this weekend! The pictures speak to this! But something I had not expected to feel was grief. In the middle of all the excitement I had a very big struggle with my family.
My mama lives in Bosnia. She lives with Ostoja my step-dad who stood outside to make me cevapcici in the rain when I came to visit. I think he loves me just a little ;) When I met my mama for the first time it was surreal. Finally I'm staring at my mama, finally I'm able to meet mama and freeze time for just a moment and get lost in the fact that she does exist. But then the moment is over and reality sets in. Skype becomes our primary contact again and spotty internet makes that difficult as well as time zone difference. So on Nathan's birthday we went to the airport to see the planes land and take off. It was so much fun! He had a blast but I realized that I missed my mama.
I would see all these planes coming and going and would just think someone is on there way to see someone or back from seeing someone. Mama is just a plane ride away. Let me just make something clear about my mama. She left when I was a month and ten days old. I hated her pretty much all my life. When I was almost 23 I said that I didn't need her again. On my 23rd birthday God changed our story through facebook. My mama found my picture and that's how this whole think began!
So last week was filled with a lot of emotions. Between excitement and grief I was an emotional roller coaster! As I looked at the planes overhead I was praying that if it was God's will to put me on a plane to see her that he would. Just last week I told Zechariah in hysterics that I couldn't wait another year to see her. She has never met Nathan in person. I want to have her experience that with all my heart. Here's what I love about God! He does fulfill the desires of my heart.
Talking to my mama about our weekend she dropped the bombshell on me that she is coming to visit me in January 2016!!!! I still am in shock! Just a week ago I was crying and praying that I could go see her and God had it planned all along that she would come!!! Our story is not the most beautiful or even understandable (language as an example) but I love my mama! My bestie took a picture of us when we went wedding dress shopping. Mama said she would buy my dress and I kissed her on the cheek in gratitude. Those are the moments I want to experience again. From no relationship to distant relationship to one month of close relationship again my excitement just can't be contained!
So this post is near to my heart because time and time again it's rang true. We are blessed to be a blessing. My mama was blessed with money and the first thing she did was buy a plane ticket!! Without question this is going to be a huge blessing to us even though it'll be cold and winter outside. I'm constantly trying to find ways to be a blessing to others. Over the course of our marriage I've witnessed both sides and I couldn't be happier. It's what we're here to do! We're here to show the love of God.
My mama blessed me and is currently, Jesus blesses us eternally. If not for the cross we wouldn't be around to talk about it!
May you see the blessing you are to others and be blessed to be a blessing!
Love you with all my heart
Tina Martina Putney
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