The house that built me

8/15/14

Today I, Zechariah and Nathan went to my old house. I didn't know what to expect but I was able to walk in my old house and see some things were still the same. The carpet on the basement stairs and some wall covering, I also noticed a hanging lamp in the living room that was the same.I'm not sure what I felt when I saw the kitchen but I know most of the memories I had there.

Zechariah has a blog that he usually bases songs of his blogs to. The song by Miranda Lambert that keeps running in my mind is "the house that built me. Some of the lyrics are as follows "I thought if I could touch this place or feel it the brokenness inside me might start healing. If I could walk around I swear I'll leave won't take nothing but a memory from the house that built me." Being in my old house was surreal for me.

Seeing the new kitchen helped me to see the new life even this house now holds. A mom lives there with her daughter that uses a wheelchair to get around. The same home I struggled in so much to find who I was is now helping a family live more comfortably.

Zechariah and I prayed in the old yard. In that moment all my childhood dreams of some day really being loved by someone came true. I was in my husbands arms and our baby boy was with us! What a beautiful story that we now live!

Being with my family today was something I never expected but I couldn't ask for anything better!! I am now a new creation in Christ! God has given me a beautiful family and life to live and most importantly a new identity! I can thankfully say I am able to move forward with the life God has for me and my family!!

Don't get me wrong life is still a struggle for me and it always will be on this side but with God on my side and my family I can handle anything!!

Maybe your story is like mine maybe it's not but whatever you're experiencing now in your life God has a beautiful story in the making for you and those he will put in your path! Someday maybe you'll be able to take nothing but a memory from the house that built you!

Love you
Tina Martina Putney