Wow! So when I say God is good I really really mean it!!! This week has been a tall tale sign why! I didn't think this could happen so quickly but after yesterday I've come to believe that nothing is impossible with God! Would you join me in our celebration as we open a new adventure while closing another?
Zechariah and I have been planning on moving back to WI next spring. We wanted to help with this youth season at our church in Minneapolis. We were actually going to be youth leaders together! I was so excited that we could finally share our experience together instead of just me filling him in on mine! So we met our new youth pastor and were pretty positive this was going to work out! God had other plans!
Our home church in Eau Claire needs youth leaders badly so we were willing to sacrifice our Wednesday dream of being youth leaders in Minneapolis and be in Eau Claire Wednesday nights but still be able to minister on Sundays and host game nights movie nights what have you. Then yesterday happened that made it abundantly clear God was up to something heavenly!!
I was playing candy crush when I heard God audibly say "look up the YMCA". I lived in Chippewa Falls before and worked as an afterschool teacher at the Chippewa Falls YMCA. I did and I got to that program found out everything looks much the same! Then I heard "Call this number." I did spoke to the coordinator of this program and just by chance asked if they were hiring. They are!! School starts next week and he needs to fill the spots!! Since we've been talking about moving back to Chippewa I couldn't get the YMCA out of my mind! I wanted to be back there so badly! It gets even better though! I looked up the apartment complex I used to live at they just happen to have a 3 br 1.5 bath available September 15!!!
This all happened in an hour! Then I connected with a friend and mom that lives in Chippewa we already have play dates in mind! Today as if he couldn't bless us more I found out that we will save $200 on car insurance by simply moving to WI!! Last night however was my most true confirmation.
I have an adopted daughter. It's actually a funny story we declared this to be before I even let Zechariah know! Last night I went to her house and dropped off a notebook as a communication tool between us! My friend said "she was telling me she woudn't have left if you had no one to be with." she looked at her and said "yeah I could totally see that, she would do that too." I finally feel that it's ok to move forward with the move. She's going to be ok! There's a phrase I've been saying this week but last night I quite literally felt it. It's like I'm passing the torch onto my friend. She now gets to love on the kids that I have cried for, over because of for over two years! I couldn't be more thrilled and settled. So what does this mean? We're going to be having a welcoming party at our new place in WI soon and we're hoping that most of you can come!!!
As much as it grieves me to know I will be leaving I can see that God is truly in this move! He already has a friend in mind to welcome me back! I also have references that would gladly help me get the position at the Y but also help with the rental. Here's why I'm sure it's God. He's been answering every desire of my heart!! Every single one!!! I wanted a garden all my life. It's a bit disorganized but I got one this summer! I'm excited to get plants and keep them outside at our new place! I'm so excited to decorate our new home!! Please keep us in your prayers as we close this wonderful chapter of our lives and enter into a very new and beautiful one!!!
I'm going to miss everyone God's brought into our lives in Minnesota so very much! Life with you has been so wonderful! Thank you for loving on us throughout our relationship. Thank you to all the wonderful baby sitters we had watch our precious baby boy this year you set my mind (as much as possible) at ease. Thank you for the coffee dates, bible studies, play dates, worship, housing my mama, provision during pregnancy and afterwards! The list goes on and on but I just want to say thank you everyone for making our time in Minnesota the best it can be!! I miss you already!
So for the youth reading this... in life there will be many opportunites to settle for second best my advice from the bottom of my heart is DON'T DO IT! God has marvelous plans for you if you just hold on and follow his prompting! Believe me he's shown himself faithful every single time!!! If you learned anything from me in my time as a youth leader I hope and pray it's that I didn't settle! I told that to my now husband the night we met officially. (that's another cool story btw!) I love you with all my heart and want the very very best that God has for you!! I would hate to hear you settled for anything less! Love your parents because someday you'll understand the power of their protection! Give grace with no limit Christ did it for you!! Above all YOU ARE NOT A MISTAKE OR ACCIDENT! You dear ones are world changers!! Let no one disqualify you to what God has called you! You are just who God wants and needs to make change happen!! Whether you know it or not you are loved beyond measure (not just by me btw). I pray God's best for you this year and every day! Love you and will definitley miss being with you but we'll be one text, letter, phone call apart!
Love you with all my heart
Tina Martina Putney
Wednesday, August 26, 2015
Friday, August 21, 2015
They still tug...
Between 4 days of teething, a migraine and crying myself to sleep last night I'd say this week was a bit of a roller coaster. In all of the chaos this week I'm learning something eye opening about family. This week I definitely felt at the end of my rope as a friend and I call it hurricane Nathan blew through (proof by the toys everywhere.) Something else I learned though was these little ones still tug at the rope. Even while I'm holding my head and praying to get rest Nathan kept bringing me toys to make sounds for him. It's been an exhausting couple of days. So If you're wondering why you may not have heard from me that's why. I'm just trying to keep it together.
Today's lesson talked about pride. So I have some confessions to make. I don't know how to be a family. I'm to busy trying to keep it all together and figure it out by myself that I get shocked when at the end of the day when all I want is rest I have more demands to fill. It sounds logical that when you have a little one at home that demands would be just about constant. But when you're at the end of your rope the last thing you want is another tug. Some days I feel like I have so many roles to fill that I almost justify my right to be to tired for anything else. Being a mom is really the most exhausting experience I've ever experienced but I can't hide behind that. As goes the saying in show business the show must go on.
I'm not good with stress or anger. These are most likely the cause of my migraines. I felt one coming on yesterday but once I'm stressed I don't know how to calm back down. There's several potential breathing methods I could try and have even going to the chiropractor has helped but once I get really stressed I'm at a loss of what to do. These are my hardest days as a mom. It's these days more then usual that Nathan likes to tug at the end of the rope or I notice it more.
A friend once told me "you're most scared of what you want the most." This is so true for me. I desire a family but I'm scared to have that family, I desire friends but I'm scared to have those friends, I pray my son remembers the good days of his childhood but I'm most afraid of him remembering the blowups I can't forgive myself for. It's a vicious cycle I can't seem to break. The good news in all this is it's not me who has to break the cycle.
I'm probably always going to struggle with these areas in my life but what I'm excited to see is the struggle can become less. Instead of struggling to have a family I can learn to embrace them as much as I can this side of eternity. I'm learning a lot about my perceptions of what a family looks like and in some cases how wrong I've been. Through this bible study I'm learning to see myself and those around me for who they really are. We're all imperfect but God's chosen to show who HE is. When I realized that even when I'm stressed with my toddler son I'm still bringing glory to Him it was overwhelming! See it's Jesus who can break that cycle and He Alone! I believe God used this week to teach me a lesson of dependence.
As much as my son depends on me I need to depend on God that much more. What he showed me this week has been a challenge. The way I see it though is if God reveals it then he has a purpose for it. I'm looking forward to embracing those God has called me to relationship with. I'm going to try my hardest to not have it all together or appear as if I do, (who really does have it all together?) Please keep this process in your prayers if you would, I'm not really sure what to do with it yet. I believe that I'll be shown the next step once I need to know. God is so good! He can take a broken vessel and use it for His glory.
So if I seem distant and you haven't heard from me in a while, it's because I'm not sure what to say. I'm not sure how to communicate these feelings yet. I feel a lot more comfortable writing them down and having you read then me have to reach out and tell. This is another thing I'm working on. It's ok to ask for help sometimes it's the only way to freedom. When I thought of getting married I thought it was 2 people living together, making a life, but still being two separate people.
But God sees marriage so much deeper. He desires that two become one flesh. This means everything the spouse has is yours and vise versa. I'm also learning what this really means. With a spouse comes the family. For someone to be thrown into family it can get a bit scary but I know if God placed me where I am he has a purpose who knows it might be just to learn more dependence he brought me where he did. I will never really know or understand this side of eternity but it wasn't random or by accident.
Where you are is not an accident, where you've been is not an accident it's all apart of God's plan for your life! Even the crazy moments that make it hard for me to trust God why he placed me where he did are not a mistake. So when I'm struggling to find the words I know that this too shall pass. God has revealed this truth to me over and over again. I believe it's in our biggest struggles that we find beautiful fellowship with our loving Father. Though we can't always understand his ways His ways are always the best ways.
Love you with all my heart
Tina Martina Putney
Today's lesson talked about pride. So I have some confessions to make. I don't know how to be a family. I'm to busy trying to keep it all together and figure it out by myself that I get shocked when at the end of the day when all I want is rest I have more demands to fill. It sounds logical that when you have a little one at home that demands would be just about constant. But when you're at the end of your rope the last thing you want is another tug. Some days I feel like I have so many roles to fill that I almost justify my right to be to tired for anything else. Being a mom is really the most exhausting experience I've ever experienced but I can't hide behind that. As goes the saying in show business the show must go on.
I'm not good with stress or anger. These are most likely the cause of my migraines. I felt one coming on yesterday but once I'm stressed I don't know how to calm back down. There's several potential breathing methods I could try and have even going to the chiropractor has helped but once I get really stressed I'm at a loss of what to do. These are my hardest days as a mom. It's these days more then usual that Nathan likes to tug at the end of the rope or I notice it more.
A friend once told me "you're most scared of what you want the most." This is so true for me. I desire a family but I'm scared to have that family, I desire friends but I'm scared to have those friends, I pray my son remembers the good days of his childhood but I'm most afraid of him remembering the blowups I can't forgive myself for. It's a vicious cycle I can't seem to break. The good news in all this is it's not me who has to break the cycle.
I'm probably always going to struggle with these areas in my life but what I'm excited to see is the struggle can become less. Instead of struggling to have a family I can learn to embrace them as much as I can this side of eternity. I'm learning a lot about my perceptions of what a family looks like and in some cases how wrong I've been. Through this bible study I'm learning to see myself and those around me for who they really are. We're all imperfect but God's chosen to show who HE is. When I realized that even when I'm stressed with my toddler son I'm still bringing glory to Him it was overwhelming! See it's Jesus who can break that cycle and He Alone! I believe God used this week to teach me a lesson of dependence.
As much as my son depends on me I need to depend on God that much more. What he showed me this week has been a challenge. The way I see it though is if God reveals it then he has a purpose for it. I'm looking forward to embracing those God has called me to relationship with. I'm going to try my hardest to not have it all together or appear as if I do, (who really does have it all together?) Please keep this process in your prayers if you would, I'm not really sure what to do with it yet. I believe that I'll be shown the next step once I need to know. God is so good! He can take a broken vessel and use it for His glory.
So if I seem distant and you haven't heard from me in a while, it's because I'm not sure what to say. I'm not sure how to communicate these feelings yet. I feel a lot more comfortable writing them down and having you read then me have to reach out and tell. This is another thing I'm working on. It's ok to ask for help sometimes it's the only way to freedom. When I thought of getting married I thought it was 2 people living together, making a life, but still being two separate people.
But God sees marriage so much deeper. He desires that two become one flesh. This means everything the spouse has is yours and vise versa. I'm also learning what this really means. With a spouse comes the family. For someone to be thrown into family it can get a bit scary but I know if God placed me where I am he has a purpose who knows it might be just to learn more dependence he brought me where he did. I will never really know or understand this side of eternity but it wasn't random or by accident.
Where you are is not an accident, where you've been is not an accident it's all apart of God's plan for your life! Even the crazy moments that make it hard for me to trust God why he placed me where he did are not a mistake. So when I'm struggling to find the words I know that this too shall pass. God has revealed this truth to me over and over again. I believe it's in our biggest struggles that we find beautiful fellowship with our loving Father. Though we can't always understand his ways His ways are always the best ways.
Love you with all my heart
Tina Martina Putney
Tuesday, August 11, 2015
Blessed to be a blessing...
After this morning I think my post is taking a different direction! Well I'm really excited to share blessings upon the Putneys we've experienced over the last few days!! As I went outside this moring to do my bible study a bag was on my steps. It was a bag of groceries from Aldi. There was no note and just happened to be what we needed. So whoever was lead to bless our family this morning thank you!!!!
Week one has been pretty emotional not necessarily because of the material but because of a lot of outside events! It was our sweetie birthday week!!! I have been looking forward to his birthday for quite some time and his parties!!! I was really excited to celebrate our boy! I feel pretty sure he felt loved this weekend! The pictures speak to this! But something I had not expected to feel was grief. In the middle of all the excitement I had a very big struggle with my family.
My mama lives in Bosnia. She lives with Ostoja my step-dad who stood outside to make me cevapcici in the rain when I came to visit. I think he loves me just a little ;) When I met my mama for the first time it was surreal. Finally I'm staring at my mama, finally I'm able to meet mama and freeze time for just a moment and get lost in the fact that she does exist. But then the moment is over and reality sets in. Skype becomes our primary contact again and spotty internet makes that difficult as well as time zone difference. So on Nathan's birthday we went to the airport to see the planes land and take off. It was so much fun! He had a blast but I realized that I missed my mama.
I would see all these planes coming and going and would just think someone is on there way to see someone or back from seeing someone. Mama is just a plane ride away. Let me just make something clear about my mama. She left when I was a month and ten days old. I hated her pretty much all my life. When I was almost 23 I said that I didn't need her again. On my 23rd birthday God changed our story through facebook. My mama found my picture and that's how this whole think began!
So last week was filled with a lot of emotions. Between excitement and grief I was an emotional roller coaster! As I looked at the planes overhead I was praying that if it was God's will to put me on a plane to see her that he would. Just last week I told Zechariah in hysterics that I couldn't wait another year to see her. She has never met Nathan in person. I want to have her experience that with all my heart. Here's what I love about God! He does fulfill the desires of my heart.
Talking to my mama about our weekend she dropped the bombshell on me that she is coming to visit me in January 2016!!!! I still am in shock! Just a week ago I was crying and praying that I could go see her and God had it planned all along that she would come!!! Our story is not the most beautiful or even understandable (language as an example) but I love my mama! My bestie took a picture of us when we went wedding dress shopping. Mama said she would buy my dress and I kissed her on the cheek in gratitude. Those are the moments I want to experience again. From no relationship to distant relationship to one month of close relationship again my excitement just can't be contained!
So this post is near to my heart because time and time again it's rang true. We are blessed to be a blessing. My mama was blessed with money and the first thing she did was buy a plane ticket!! Without question this is going to be a huge blessing to us even though it'll be cold and winter outside. I'm constantly trying to find ways to be a blessing to others. Over the course of our marriage I've witnessed both sides and I couldn't be happier. It's what we're here to do! We're here to show the love of God.
My mama blessed me and is currently, Jesus blesses us eternally. If not for the cross we wouldn't be around to talk about it!
May you see the blessing you are to others and be blessed to be a blessing!
Love you with all my heart
Tina Martina Putney
Week one has been pretty emotional not necessarily because of the material but because of a lot of outside events! It was our sweetie birthday week!!! I have been looking forward to his birthday for quite some time and his parties!!! I was really excited to celebrate our boy! I feel pretty sure he felt loved this weekend! The pictures speak to this! But something I had not expected to feel was grief. In the middle of all the excitement I had a very big struggle with my family.
My mama lives in Bosnia. She lives with Ostoja my step-dad who stood outside to make me cevapcici in the rain when I came to visit. I think he loves me just a little ;) When I met my mama for the first time it was surreal. Finally I'm staring at my mama, finally I'm able to meet mama and freeze time for just a moment and get lost in the fact that she does exist. But then the moment is over and reality sets in. Skype becomes our primary contact again and spotty internet makes that difficult as well as time zone difference. So on Nathan's birthday we went to the airport to see the planes land and take off. It was so much fun! He had a blast but I realized that I missed my mama.
I would see all these planes coming and going and would just think someone is on there way to see someone or back from seeing someone. Mama is just a plane ride away. Let me just make something clear about my mama. She left when I was a month and ten days old. I hated her pretty much all my life. When I was almost 23 I said that I didn't need her again. On my 23rd birthday God changed our story through facebook. My mama found my picture and that's how this whole think began!
So last week was filled with a lot of emotions. Between excitement and grief I was an emotional roller coaster! As I looked at the planes overhead I was praying that if it was God's will to put me on a plane to see her that he would. Just last week I told Zechariah in hysterics that I couldn't wait another year to see her. She has never met Nathan in person. I want to have her experience that with all my heart. Here's what I love about God! He does fulfill the desires of my heart.
Talking to my mama about our weekend she dropped the bombshell on me that she is coming to visit me in January 2016!!!! I still am in shock! Just a week ago I was crying and praying that I could go see her and God had it planned all along that she would come!!! Our story is not the most beautiful or even understandable (language as an example) but I love my mama! My bestie took a picture of us when we went wedding dress shopping. Mama said she would buy my dress and I kissed her on the cheek in gratitude. Those are the moments I want to experience again. From no relationship to distant relationship to one month of close relationship again my excitement just can't be contained!
So this post is near to my heart because time and time again it's rang true. We are blessed to be a blessing. My mama was blessed with money and the first thing she did was buy a plane ticket!! Without question this is going to be a huge blessing to us even though it'll be cold and winter outside. I'm constantly trying to find ways to be a blessing to others. Over the course of our marriage I've witnessed both sides and I couldn't be happier. It's what we're here to do! We're here to show the love of God.
My mama blessed me and is currently, Jesus blesses us eternally. If not for the cross we wouldn't be around to talk about it!
May you see the blessing you are to others and be blessed to be a blessing!
Love you with all my heart
Tina Martina Putney
Tuesday, August 4, 2015
We're there when it matters most
I've been meaning to write this for a while now just didn't think I had a complete thought yet. As we all know all good things must come to an end but somethings like lessons learned stick with us hopefully forever. The lessons I learned at the close of my study of King David left me speechless. David wasn't always there for his family but what really resonates with me is that he was when it mattered most.
Solomon was an inexperienced and young King. He needed a lot of help from wiser elders such as David. Although David wasn't apart of family functions much growing up I think we can all agree that Solomon could say that his dad was there when he needed him most. Think of the emotions that must have been swirling through his head! Will I be a good king? Will I be victorious? Will I do right in the eyes of the Lord? Will I know how to judge properly? Mainly am I ready? And so on and so forth. Have we had any of these thoughts before I'm sure if you apply these questions and doubts to your situation you can say honestly yes. I think the crucial piece here is that someone believed that he could and so they made it their mission to prepare Solomon for his kingly duties.
I just think this is so beautiful! I often times didn't understand the reasoning behind David's distance but regained my respect again towards the end of his reign as he took the steps to establish Solomon as king. I love legacies! I love making them, I love learning about them, I love learning about the marks someone left behind. David's investment to Solomon didn't just impact his generation it also impacted his grandson's. Solomon advised his son against certain actions to keep his son blameless before God. Instead of a distant legacy Solomon passed on the wisdom to his son! Can you see why I find this so beautiful??
As a mother I get what it's like to pray earnestly that my child would have better then I did. I also get how hard and taxing that sometimes can be. As this year of motherhood has come to a close I welcome all the lessons I learned and am anticipating the many I have yet to. The most important that I feel reflects parenting to me is I'm there when it matters most.
We just finished swimming lessons last week. Our little man loves the water! He loves to splash in the tub, loves walking in and out of the pool, he's an all around explorer. One of days we were trying out the frog slide. I saw that he was scared but I kept telling him I was right there ready to catch him and I was! I won't always be there but when he gets scared he knows I'll be there with him somehow. The second time we tried the slide I decided to go down it with him. This seemed to go a lot better he enjoyed it more I think. The last time we tried the slide he climbed right up the stairs and as I went to the bottom of the slide I was met with a big huge smile. It's as if he was saying "I'm ready mama!"
Honestly the thought of swimming and going underwater scared me. But each day I got a little bit more comfortable with it and by the end of the week both Nathan and I were enjoying ourselves. This was one of the times that I think he'll remember as I was there when he needed me. If someone were to ask Nathan what he remembers the most about his childhood I hope and pray he can something like "well I didn't have perfect parents but they tried their very best to be there for me and show me that they loved me" And that is my goal for the rest of my life to never stop finding ways to show him love and be there when he needs me.
So we celebrated Nathan's birthday tonight. I wanted to make sure we did something extra special, something that Nathan would remember for a long time. He loves airplanes! Fortunately we live by the airport and see them fly by quite often. So we went to watch airplanes take off and land. We had a lot of fun!! Grandpa David came with us too so it was even more special! Seeing the joy on his little face made the effort to see planes so worth it!! Hearing him make his happy noises is the delight of my heart!
I know he's happy and tonight we let him experience a dream fulfilled! In Love Dare for Parents it talked about children having dreams buried inside that are just waiting to be fulfilled. From that day forward I knew we were going to see planes on his birthday! I just knew he would enjoy that experience!! We were right and it made my heart leap for joy! Once again we were there when it mattered most. I'm now starting another Beth Moore bible study with some wonderful woman and friends! It's Breaking Free. Apparentley it's quite a powerful one as even Beth herself completed it!
I'm really excited for this because I know God's going to do some big changes in me! I'm so excited for strongholds to be broken!! I'm not always going to enjoy the process but I will love the end result. It's true that everything worth having is worth fighting for. I'm learning that every day! Some days are certainly better then others as a stay at home mom but I wouldn't trade anything to miss any of these moments with my son! It's so worth every sacrifice to see that smile and hear that giggle and get those cuddles!!! As more breaks off of me I pray that frees up my emotions and mind to be there for Nathan. Again it's another opportunity for him to say I was there when he needed me the most.
In our family we teach intentionality. We love people, we love being with people, we love making memories, sharing life with others, exploring our interests together. We pray that every time we are with someone Nathan sees how intentional we are with them. One day he will model the behavior he was taught and I pray that we are showing him how to love and forgive and give grace. That's what Jesus does for us! One day he'll be called to live like Jesus and I pray that he's been seeing Him all along as he watches us! When all is said and done I hope he can say "they were there when I needed them the most."
I love you with all my heart
Tina Martina Putney
Solomon was an inexperienced and young King. He needed a lot of help from wiser elders such as David. Although David wasn't apart of family functions much growing up I think we can all agree that Solomon could say that his dad was there when he needed him most. Think of the emotions that must have been swirling through his head! Will I be a good king? Will I be victorious? Will I do right in the eyes of the Lord? Will I know how to judge properly? Mainly am I ready? And so on and so forth. Have we had any of these thoughts before I'm sure if you apply these questions and doubts to your situation you can say honestly yes. I think the crucial piece here is that someone believed that he could and so they made it their mission to prepare Solomon for his kingly duties.
I just think this is so beautiful! I often times didn't understand the reasoning behind David's distance but regained my respect again towards the end of his reign as he took the steps to establish Solomon as king. I love legacies! I love making them, I love learning about them, I love learning about the marks someone left behind. David's investment to Solomon didn't just impact his generation it also impacted his grandson's. Solomon advised his son against certain actions to keep his son blameless before God. Instead of a distant legacy Solomon passed on the wisdom to his son! Can you see why I find this so beautiful??
As a mother I get what it's like to pray earnestly that my child would have better then I did. I also get how hard and taxing that sometimes can be. As this year of motherhood has come to a close I welcome all the lessons I learned and am anticipating the many I have yet to. The most important that I feel reflects parenting to me is I'm there when it matters most.
We just finished swimming lessons last week. Our little man loves the water! He loves to splash in the tub, loves walking in and out of the pool, he's an all around explorer. One of days we were trying out the frog slide. I saw that he was scared but I kept telling him I was right there ready to catch him and I was! I won't always be there but when he gets scared he knows I'll be there with him somehow. The second time we tried the slide I decided to go down it with him. This seemed to go a lot better he enjoyed it more I think. The last time we tried the slide he climbed right up the stairs and as I went to the bottom of the slide I was met with a big huge smile. It's as if he was saying "I'm ready mama!"
Honestly the thought of swimming and going underwater scared me. But each day I got a little bit more comfortable with it and by the end of the week both Nathan and I were enjoying ourselves. This was one of the times that I think he'll remember as I was there when he needed me. If someone were to ask Nathan what he remembers the most about his childhood I hope and pray he can something like "well I didn't have perfect parents but they tried their very best to be there for me and show me that they loved me" And that is my goal for the rest of my life to never stop finding ways to show him love and be there when he needs me.
So we celebrated Nathan's birthday tonight. I wanted to make sure we did something extra special, something that Nathan would remember for a long time. He loves airplanes! Fortunately we live by the airport and see them fly by quite often. So we went to watch airplanes take off and land. We had a lot of fun!! Grandpa David came with us too so it was even more special! Seeing the joy on his little face made the effort to see planes so worth it!! Hearing him make his happy noises is the delight of my heart!
I know he's happy and tonight we let him experience a dream fulfilled! In Love Dare for Parents it talked about children having dreams buried inside that are just waiting to be fulfilled. From that day forward I knew we were going to see planes on his birthday! I just knew he would enjoy that experience!! We were right and it made my heart leap for joy! Once again we were there when it mattered most. I'm now starting another Beth Moore bible study with some wonderful woman and friends! It's Breaking Free. Apparentley it's quite a powerful one as even Beth herself completed it!
I'm really excited for this because I know God's going to do some big changes in me! I'm so excited for strongholds to be broken!! I'm not always going to enjoy the process but I will love the end result. It's true that everything worth having is worth fighting for. I'm learning that every day! Some days are certainly better then others as a stay at home mom but I wouldn't trade anything to miss any of these moments with my son! It's so worth every sacrifice to see that smile and hear that giggle and get those cuddles!!! As more breaks off of me I pray that frees up my emotions and mind to be there for Nathan. Again it's another opportunity for him to say I was there when he needed me the most.
In our family we teach intentionality. We love people, we love being with people, we love making memories, sharing life with others, exploring our interests together. We pray that every time we are with someone Nathan sees how intentional we are with them. One day he will model the behavior he was taught and I pray that we are showing him how to love and forgive and give grace. That's what Jesus does for us! One day he'll be called to live like Jesus and I pray that he's been seeing Him all along as he watches us! When all is said and done I hope he can say "they were there when I needed them the most."
I love you with all my heart
Tina Martina Putney
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