Wow!! This is BIG!! This morning I had a conversation that I feel Holy Spirit led! It was an apology that I needed to make a long time ago! Of course the other person did not remember the interaction but I did and it has been on my mind all this time! It keeps playing in my head over and over! I keep hearing and seeing her face and her sweet smile and my offensive tone that follows! That's what PTSD is just a collection of memories or recording basically of an event that just plays over and over in our minds. The crazy thing about my diagnosis is soldiers that have gone to war come home with this!! I have an illness that is so traumatic it's as if I am in a war zone!!
Yesterday I took my boys to the Mall of America on the light rail. Yesterday I didn't see the significance but as I write this post now I see! We walked to the Veteran Medical station. I saw a Veteran sitting on the steps of the house he lived in and I tried to have Nathan say "Thank you for your service!" I ended up being the one (which happens alot)! But as I write this I'm struck by the reality that I am diagnosed with something that Veteran suffers from!! How crazy is that!! So in this particular instance PTSD has been helpful to reconcile a friendship that I have had since college (where the incident took place)
Here's what I'm feeling, I have a mental illness that is as sever as soldiers who go off to war! I could be in those homes! This particular incident has been playing over and over in my mind for years and as of this morning I never felt more at paece with it! I told her I felt "right" like it was a weight on my mind and shoulders all this time! God is so good is He not!! Now just because I am diagnosed with PTSD does it mean that I will be on medication the REST of my life?? NO!! Let me share with you the amazing opportunity that GOD revealed to me right BEFORE my mama left to go back home to Slovenia! Like that week I was being exposed to this amazing opportunity!!
A friend of mine called me about this and to be honest at first I wasn't interested. I have MLM experience before and kind of just gave up after a few months. When she called me with a more successful leader I got really excited! I could ask questions and I was getting answers! One such question was how is this going to affect my medications? They didn't have the answer for me right away but got back to my friend within a day about her cousin that suffers from PTSD!! Enter in Plexus!
Plexus is an amazing health and wellness company! Our products are literally life changing! They get to the root issue not just treat the symptoms! You also may recall that I am a migraine sufferer since I have been consistent with these products I have had little to none! When I have suffered my bounce back was so much faster that same day!!! I am taking what's called the Triplex our Slim, pro bio 5 and bio clense! This isn't about selling if you feel uncomfortable right now! Just sharing MY experiences!
I tried the Slim in a 7 day challenge which we have one happening starting next Monday!! Loved the flavor and then signed up under my friend that week! What I had no idea I would experience is the end to taking my medications!
I just met with my psychiatrist recently and told her about what I've been doing she gave me the green light to continue to take my products and didn't encourage medication!! You guys this is not normal!!! People diagnosed with mental health do no get off thier medication a year later!!! This is nothing but a miracle!! I've got things he wants me to do here and suffering through side effects is not a part of God's plan for my life!!! Here's another blessing that has come my way!
My program that I graduated from called me to invite me to an incredible opportunity! They are participating in the Lullaby Project! Carnegie Hall performers are interested in our stories! We then make lullabies for our babies!! They thought of me right away!!! Once again I see God is fulfilling a prophecy spoken over me during the most difficult season of my life! She said that I will be a light to the mental health community and that has been my prayer since my journey began!!
See God knows exactly what we need I truly believe that! He knows when we need community, better health, step into our calling. It's all in his PERFECT timing!! I can't really see all of these blessings in my life now and not remember where we were just 2 years ago. We are coming up on the two year anniversary of the hardest weekend of our lives! Our beautiful 3 year old now was removed from our care. For a young marriage I really am not sure what harder trial we can be put through then this!! Outside of this all I can think of is miscarraige, still birth, severe disability!
We needed to go through that to come to where we are. No it wasn't pleasant it wasn't easy and it was necassary! Here we are two years later as a family of four! How can we know a story like mine and doubt the existence of God!!!
I love you with all my heart!
Tina Martina Putney
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