Another birthday, Another year to make memories

So now that my birthday has come and gone I get to reflect on 28 years! Wow life is truly an adventure!! You guys read the blog about mine and Zechariah's earlier days in our relationship. To be at this point in such a small amount of time is amazing to me!!

We're parents!!! We have the cutest and sweetest little guy to raise in the way he should go at home!! It's such a joy to finally be a mommy even with the spit up!! Yesterday all three of us took a "family nap" I'm telling you those are the moments I live for!! Being cuddled up close with my favorite boys there's nothing better!!! We went out for lunch watched moms night out I had youth group and went to applebees for half of appetizers!!

If you would have told me a year ago this is what life would look like now I wouldn't have believed you. It's to fun to hang out with my best friend and son all day long. Hopefully Zechariah will be going back to work soon but for now I'm enjoying the season of having him home!! I've come to love the teamwork we've been able to share. I also enjoy the quiet moments that I have to myself. In these moments I can truly reflect on and think about where God has brought me!

From WI to MN from single to married from married to parents all in a matter of two years!!! God is really a magnificent story teller!! To think I could have made different choices that would have made everything look totally different now. We've all been there stayed in an unhealthy relationship to long, drug on an unhealthy friendship, believed a lie about yourself that you claim to be fact, stayed in a season to long resisting change. I'm no different I still catch myself every now and then resisting change or healing just because of instability. I need to know what to expect. Dear friends and family of mine will be able to tell you I like surprises but at the same time I want to figure out what's going on. It makes our house interesting :)

What I have come to realize last night as I was talking to Zechariah is that we are all in the exact spot God wants to be in that moment. We are all in the exact season God has us in. Ecclesiastes 3 says there is a time for everything. When you read that scripture you see how true it is no matter what you believe about destiny, fate or predetermined destiny. It's just a fact of life there is a time for everything! I believe this is my time to plant, heal, embrace, gather stones, build, and love.

Being a new mom I get to now plant so to speak my family where it blooms. We get to create a new legacy for our baby Nathan that wouldn't have been possible in any other time of our lives. Heal from a long journey of lonliness, being replaced, distant family, I get to heal from unmet needs and expectations. It's not going to be a pain free journey but it's going to be freeing to let it all go now and pick up my new life. Embrace the season I'm in. I'm a mom from here on out no matter what I will always have someone to protect, pray over, for and with, take care of, teach, and love unconditionally, most important I have a disciple at home to teach about who Jesus is and how he loves us!!Gather stones instead of living a path of destruction I get to put the pieces together and create a masterpiece! Build up my family, friends, youth God puts on my heart, myself even, we all get a chance to become who we're meant to be. This is my time to pour into all God places on my heart to love, encourage, lead, love, see, hear, live life with. Lastly but most importantly love. No more anger and bitterness I can let go of that and pick up love now. I know that I am to love and be loved. Can there be a better time to put this into practice then with a newborn baby at home yearning for it?

I've been through alot of seasons in my life but this by far is my favorite one!! I'm seeing myself in ways I never thought I would. It's been a long hard journey to get here but my trust in God has grown so much as it needed to!! I love being a wife and mother but my favorite is being God's daughter!! I love him so much and I'm going to embrace the season he has me in because to not be content would be me saying "I love you but this just isn't good enough." How could I possibly say that to my daddy who has made me feel always good enough?? I'm going to embrace what God has for me because it's so special. He didn't have to give me the life he did but I'm so glad he chose to. This is my story this is my song praising my savior all the day long are words from blessed assurance. I'm assured that I am right where God wants and needs me to be.

Let me leave you with this question: What season or time or you in?

Love you
Tina Martina Putney